Love

Man it just struck me how hard my parents work for me I gotta pay them back I just don't know if going through college is how I'm going to pay them back. I just really realize how much they must love. Me. & My brother. It makes me sick how people say. I never knew you had abrother. Ughh. I'm sorry lord I got some shit I gotta get together. These niggas always came through for me and all I can do is take advantage of their kidnness. *sigh*

It's gonna be some shit that's gonna make it real hard to sleep at night.

I feel like i'm not happy with my life. I am happy with Candace and I barley think about Jada any more I feel this sneaking suspicion that she's not living her life like she said she was gonna. Isn't it funny how people try to control ypur life from a far. They try to guilt you into not having sex with other people or drinkingabd smoking but then they do it. Damn o was dumb. Anyway I feel like my realtionship with my brother is beyond repair and I was listening to j Cole. And I thought what if he died I'd be fucked up manwell of course I would be I don't think about death as much as the average person. I think about it about once efery year. Because nobody ever died in life that I care about I never knew my three other grandparents and o can't fathomt my last grandma dieing. I wanna repair of relationship but o don't know where to start. I want a real brother that I cantalk to andshit I always say later on in life but what if it never come. Excuse the grammar I did this blog from an itouch too.

Black people

I'm watching this town hall meeting tell me why the crowd has not one black person in it.
This shit is put fault we never pay attention to politics when it effects us the most who gives a fuck about Obama if he ain't doin his job.

Decsions decisions.

Why.
Do girls do the things they do.
So I'm at work.
And these girls Shantoya Titianna Ciara and Angeleese talk so much shit about each other it's disgusting. WHY thee fuck do girls feel the need to do this shit.
(pause, I'm watching the real world and this girl just tries to suck this niggas dick she is basically asking for his cock. And he says no. One because she was soforward it was weird. Bitches think their pussy is worth a small country. Fuck that. Two because ugh she won't cute. That's our fault though we should never have put that pussy on that pedastal called pussaliath. Stop making these whores believe we should move earth wind and fire to fuck because your pussy is only worth fair value that means when it's a surplus. Fuck YOU and during a drought you become slightly more valuable. So stop treating your vagina like gold. Cause that is a preciousmineral. And like a used car who's value decreases when you buy it. )

Anyway sp these bitches talk shit about each other and swear to fucking god they didn't. And that's because girls are all talk. They huff puff and puff. Their only distinct addantage Over the male species. Is their oratory skills. No pin intended. Girls just like to hear shit about other girls Bitches looooooce to talk about ducking niggas especially virgins. They luuuv to listen to how many dicks so and so sucked when in reality it doesn't Matter fuck that shit. After one bitchvtells The other bitch bitch #1 says to herself "oh. She a freak how slut etc "

BITCH!

Just cause you are a virgin and she's not doesn't mean she is hoe. It just mean she knows what the fuck she wanna do with her life

Rule to live by number one
#1
mind your own fucking buisness
(I wrote this from a iPod so it might not be grammtically correct. )

Jacksons going back to them we coppin somemore...

Test test test test... Itouch.

real niggas gettin money better log off..

so i'm in the quest to buy a car before school start, but this shit ain't workin out tooo well,
when you buying your OWN car, by yourself your price range kinda limited..
it's hard to save in teh summer cause if not you gonna miss out on the best part of life. so this is my struggle.. i mean theres cars out theer for 500$ but that's not what i want in my life i refuse to drive a car that's older than me, or looks like this ...

hold up i'll be back ..

www.craigslist.com




nah son,
I REFUSE TO DRIVE THAT
..
and it's like it's always disappointment ..
like today i HAD THIS CAR.. it was cheap..
it was a 96' mazda 626.. perfect condition
i call to arrange the test drive..
he's selling it as i call.
WHAT..
and it's like what the fuck do i gotta do
i know that the world ain't easy but life as
a shorty shouldn't be so rough i swear..

thats why it makes me sooo mad to see niggas that say they GOT a car they just don
't feel like gettin they license yet..
WELL THEN BITCH LEMME DRIVE YOUR SHIT TILL YOU DO!

on top of that this whole week at work made me really think about murde..
i looked it up and everything the...
the electric chair ain't so bad.
it's better than ocean breeze
so day #2
lets see how long this keeps up..

Wifeys is always down, through think, and thin, not always with a smile, & she will call you on your bullshit, don't get mad at her for your flaws. =/ <3 c.a.w

random thoughts..

lifes a bitch
& i'm dying to see her tits.
just got her wet,
waitin to go in depth.



"these new type bitches are so wack like,
seriously anybody noticing how corny these newbreed of bitch coming in to hs is?
we gotta watch this shit my niggas,
these bitches then had myspace since like fourth grade,
but whats weird is like they all the same bitch.
they all say the same things dress the same was only thing is different is the faces on the hoes
like they like one bitch one soul and shit.
i seriously hope this shit change cause these rising sophomores
is definitely already ran through ;)
shit i did my part. ;) got it get out my system before i get 18 lol
for the most part all bitches is the same i'm beginning to think ya'll all bleed on the
same day too,
ugh none of them are intelligent different
interesting or anything, i mean it don't matter cause we just gonna
fuck ya'll but still while we tryna fuck y'all could at least provide entertainment. "

It's like haileys comet, you wonder if it came too soon, and if you'll ever see it again in your lifetime, goodnight candace.

random acts of fuckery

people are wild predictable,
i went out the hood today and bumped into my ex
jank,
so we was interactin' & shit and she says
"would you mind if i kiss you?" "just to see if it's the same"
yes, the fuck i would.
lmao forreal?
nigga this ain't 1999
we not 8 years old
if i fucked you and nutted in your face
it wouldn't feel the same..
ya lips feel like lips
i ain't clumsy ain't
this ain't a trap a nigga fallin in..

damn,
so that other chick, nobody knows what the fuck she doin with her life or vagina, oh well

then,
a nigga took the final exam,
in alg II
i was the only asshole there.
we just lookin at each other like

anyways summer commin,
this nigga exec need to get in the studio
i got the beats...


oh yeah.. fuck dogs
how this nigga mike vick kill eleventy million dogs and go to jail for 23 months, and the took his momma house.
and donte stallworth kill one person and get thirty days???

i could kill A THOUSAND DOGS, RIGHT NOW it wouldn't fuck up my mood,i'd fall asleepright after words with knife in my hand YOU COULD KILL MY DOG if i had one and i'd be like damn son why you kill my dog? well shit GOODNIGHT.. -_-
ill killa dog right now if seen one fuck em they not human.. thats like saying it's fucked up to walk cause i gurrante everybody livin in the world stepped on some kinda of insect or killed a fly or something meanwhile .. this nigga killed a person annnnna he was drunk. annnnd he left the scene annnnnnn he was way over the limit annnnnnd he was speeedin annnnd he black tooo. and goes to jail for thirty days... -___-..
forreal nigga?
his lawyer must be Johnnie Cochran's ghost cause AIN'T NO WAY I CAN RUN A NIGGA OVER AND BE DRUNK AND NOT HAVE 66887967869876 MILLION DOLLARS and just get off like that..

don't oj gucci & jeezy got beef?
didn't jeezy try to kill that nigga?
didn't gucci kill that "killa" nigga?
who remember cmurder?
who REMEMBER SHYNE??????




MAX B!!
he should have had donte stallworth lawyer...
8 counts of attempted murder? lmao WAVY!!

i'm tired..
i think i love this girl, a little bit
even though we not really synchronized right now niggas gotta work all the time,
she still better than them other ones ..
but that's what everybody says
about they exxes..
fuck dogs. fuck being bitter. fuck twitter

why porn stars be posting pictures of everything but the titties? i don't wanna see you cook bitch i want the whole enchilada...

was twister even necessary on that wetter shit?
i mean strippers don't really need lyrics? just dollars..
i'm bored i'm bout to call somebody and get on they nerves

i hope your more like anita baker than robin givens;

and i don't give a fuck if they broke up;

"may 19th"

powered by ODEO

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Listening to: Nas - Disciple

blinded

lie to me;

i'll prefer it because im too young for this shit..

its deceiving that your are the reason the summer breezes transends to a cold season.

*sigh* why claim to do somethin thru a land line call but when our eyes meet your blinded

theres not a logic to freeze up on a nigga but wanna send a text sayin sorry for doin it.

FUCK THAT lie to me

tell me how good i make you feel even if its not real

tell me you wanna hang out even if we dont chill

cuz i mean at this point ... keepin it real" is just not you

just dont leave me out to shrink i dont even wanna be in the criteria of that

why tell me you wanna do things different cuz you dont want us to argue 

but when you LIE and don't you seem stunned when i start to..

so this lying thing you minus well keep it flowin..

hey =/ it got us this far right?

i gotta keep tell myself

- "kwame.. dont get wrapped up in this shit your only 17"

but 17 years i still looked over

cant win for losing

cuz son i'll tell you like hov did.

- "i ain't no ordinary nigga, look around, this aint want ordinary gets ya"

guess its two sides to this bitch.

ill open my eyes later.

 

"The irony of selling drugs is sort of like i'm using it Guess its two sides to what 'substance abuse' is "

soo, when you little you really want something for christmas & you can't fuckin wait to get it, then you get it then you like =/ i got it now what. you play with it & it gets old then you throw it away. & that's cool cause it's a TOY no shots lol anyway,when you meet a bitch, "excuse my favorite word for hers & hers alike but i learned it from a song i heard & sort of liked"
on like the train or school or whereever you choose to meet bitches, or niggas or what have you.
rite? follow me
everything is fresh & new
you not gonna hurt her & she not gonna hurt you
we.. or you..
cause i don't do that this stupid shit
tel them your diffrent & you spend so much time tryna be diffrent
cause your not.
& "put in work as they say on a bitch"
because she built the this terrible wall up
then you load up & try to destroy it all at once..
(flowers, staying up late etc.)
that don't work & its crazy cause fro a boys mind you should be able to get directly to the point
& be done. then you have sex to show your love for him lol
..
but it don't work & he be confuesd.
then he tries to take it down brick by brick .
& that works like motherfuckin gangbusters..
except he can't see that because niggas got a one track mind..
niggas think
cause & effect
girls think
effect -> feelings & cause
you (insert nice thing here) because you want to make her happy, not just so you can fuck
she wonders what you motives behind that is and what the cause is...

anyway,
you can't see the wall coming down because the bricks aren't making a much of a dent visually

like jenga. but it's comin, & when it does it's the best. cause ain't nothing better than workin all week to get that fat ass check


its cool.
but why would you put in all that work just to go
cheat on her?
or fuck with other bitches?
like if you wanna be like that then do that
but why waste a year or two on something?
to fuck it up?
you don't hvae to make up your mind..
but you gotta let that othere person,
live they life.
basically what you doin now is taking
out your frustration of having to work so hard
on something on her
like punishing her for not trusting you & shit, in a way your just proving her point.
that niggas not shit,
but niggas is SHIT lol
the shit no homo
and you just making it harder for other niggas to bag mrs "right"
you fucking up the game
when you thought thats what you wanted but realized it you just wanted somebody.
& she happend to be mrs" right there "
it's only high school true, but if you was going by that you wouldn have put in that much fucking work

"now follow through like kobe" or give up the rock..

Now let's pray that arm candy
That you left your Ex- for stay 'down' and come in handy
Cause come January, it gets cold
When the letters start to slow, when your commissary's low
When your lawyer screams "Appeal!" only thinkin' bout a bill
When your chances are nil, damn, gravity's ill...

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Listening to: Jay-Z - Fallin'

Last Day Dream;

Last Day Dream [HD] from Chris Milk on Vimeo.

$ on my mind

lmao best believe a nigga clockin

lifeless love

There's no spark, i wish i would of brought a lighter.. Of love and design to designate the igniter. Complex careless company but i wanna be, a better half but the math? Hey i guess i never passed the test of affection still until now im a "wanna be"... Blinded by love and meets exactly where im gonna be. Not gonna seem to pass up on the future, of daydream to seemingly sustain fewer, mischievously i missle your looks into a pistol. and cock it right at my brain cuz you blow my mind. Now my depiction of the inside me is shot in the heart and struck without a glove
shoulders i shrug cuz of a lifeless love

Exec Musik

Flight School Remix (We Not Like You)

http://www.zshare.net/audio/601516779a648912/

Your Wrong

http://www.zshare.net/audio/60151806753d6303/

i love this guy.. pause

a blink

drake is great

the tip-0ff

the game's on [:

(whistle blows)

wonder how this series is gonna end.

ya know.. now that i'm playin with a "Big 3" i'm just gonna do my part and continue to dish out my potential spotlight stardom..

every game is a different view of who remains the "go-to-guy" in the Finals, but they all seem to do there part as of now...

no more trading for new lights until the off-season..

there's a bittersweet darkside", a joyful mix", and brooklyn fix"

they all concide with my saucy savvy..

damn.. just another theatrical thought

or maybe just my first widescreen daydream..