Love

Man it just struck me how hard my parents work for me I gotta pay them back I just don't know if going through college is how I'm going to pay them back. I just really realize how much they must love. Me. & My brother. It makes me sick how people say. I never knew you had abrother. Ughh. I'm sorry lord I got some shit I gotta get together. These niggas always came through for me and all I can do is take advantage of their kidnness. *sigh*

It's gonna be some shit that's gonna make it real hard to sleep at night.

I feel like i'm not happy with my life. I am happy with Candace and I barley think about Jada any more I feel this sneaking suspicion that she's not living her life like she said she was gonna. Isn't it funny how people try to control ypur life from a far. They try to guilt you into not having sex with other people or drinkingabd smoking but then they do it. Damn o was dumb. Anyway I feel like my realtionship with my brother is beyond repair and I was listening to j Cole. And I thought what if he died I'd be fucked up manwell of course I would be I don't think about death as much as the average person. I think about it about once efery year. Because nobody ever died in life that I care about I never knew my three other grandparents and o can't fathomt my last grandma dieing. I wanna repair of relationship but o don't know where to start. I want a real brother that I cantalk to andshit I always say later on in life but what if it never come. Excuse the grammar I did this blog from an itouch too.

Black people

I'm watching this town hall meeting tell me why the crowd has not one black person in it.
This shit is put fault we never pay attention to politics when it effects us the most who gives a fuck about Obama if he ain't doin his job.